Reaching Dreams

When I was a kid, I always looked forward to reaching my dreams.
I studied hard, did everything to make my art look good and worked hard for confidence.
Now that I am in my senior year, graduating this school year in college. . .
Things did not turn out the way I imagined it to be.

Don't get me wrong, I was honestly expecting the hardships the challenges.
I imagined the discrimination, the doubts, the financial challenges, and the criticisms.
But there is one thing that I have never thought about. .
Something I never expected to actually pull me down big time and actually discourage me.

Me.

The biggest challenge i have right now, is the battle within myself.
My self-pity, my fears, my indecisiveness, my own expectations.
My own doubts with my own craft, My own pessimism towards my art.
My own criticism with my own art, my own condemnation.

My being perfectionist.

This is one of the most challenging factors to face when one reaches her dream.
Being a perfectionist is something that has to be controlled and balanced.
It's somewhat unhealthy when you focus so much on making all things good,
And actually forgetting that you make art to be happy, not to make money.

I guess thats the point, reaching one's dream and providing for her own needs,
Is the biggest battle any artist could face into reaching her dreams.
It's no joke to graduate and risk reaching one's dream over a sure steady job.
It is a battle between having money with no dream against having a dream with no money.

But then again, you'll never know what can happen.
Quite frankly, all you need is God's Hands over your dreams,
And accepting His Grace and trusting Him that He provides for all your needs.
So you get your dreams and the provision that you actually need.

The secret to reaching one's dreams is actually keeping one's eyes on Him. :)