God's Best

A conversation between two different people who loves God. I hope this inspires you as much as it has inspired me. :)

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I honestly like you a lot, and maybe something more than that.
I'm very scared to lose you & very scared to know the truth about us.
What if God really doesn't mean for us to be together?
How exactly can I react to that?
Do I let you go or do I rebel and stay with you?
But someday hear from someone that I should have waited for God's best.
Cause if we're not meant for each other, we at some percentage destroy something inside of us.
Before I always would let go of anything for God. . .
But somehow when it came to the matters of the heart, I am somehow divided.
I am so scared to lose you, but I am more scared to disappoint God.
I love God so much, but I'm extremely scared to lose you.
Somehow I wonder if this happens to other people.
I am so much concerned of what God wants, that I don't want to make a mistake.

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That's why we're lessening everything at the moment.
Because we still don't know if we're meant for each other.
That's why we're lessening, to detach ourselves from each other.
So that if ever one day, we find out that God doesn't want us to be together, then we can take it.
We have to be strong for us to go through that.
There might be someone else there that God wants for you.
I want to be with you, but if God doesn't want me to, no matter how hurtful it truly is for me, I will have to let go.
Even if you don't want to let go, I will.
No matter how much I really don't want to.
But as long as I know it's for the best of us, especially you, then we'll be fine.
We just have to be strong.
But i do pray, every single day that we'll be together.
And i know that He's listening to me.
I know that He hears the cries of my heart. What I REALLY want and that I'd do practically anything to be with her.
He listens to me, and that's what eases my doubts of the future.
That I've done everything I can to be with you, and even with that, we still won't be together, then it really isn't meant to be.
I know that if ever we're together, and its not supposed to be, we will never be happy, We will always have our conscience talking to us.
So no matter which way it goes, God will always be with us.

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We will follow God no matter what.
He knows what's best for us.
I cannot comprehend the idea of not being with you & spending my life with another guy.
But i do understand & believe that He's not doing this because He's controlling us. .
Rather because He knows what's best for us.
I want to be with you, but if there's another girl who's far more better than I am that will suit you better, then I will let go.
Not because of rebellion against God, but rather because of my utmost care about you.
Only God knows if we'll be together, but at this moment, you are the best for me.
Now I understand what it truly means, "If you really love somebody, you let them go,"
It's not a heroic act, but rather an act of wisdom and complete understanding of what "love" really means.
I'll be honest, up until now, I am searching for the real meaning of those three little words.
Whatever happens between us, we leave it all to God.

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