I'm Okay

Loneliness.

It is one of the things that dig deep in the heart.

I think I just lost my connection to my best friend, and its such a hard thing to move on with. There's so much that I want to cover it up with, but i think the only one that could cover it up is to keep on working. Being an emotional person isn't so easy. It's actually quite insane to face life without telling anyone how your day was or how things are going thru. But I guess is the best for both of us. :)

It just hurts so much, endless nights of crying. Losing a connection with your best friend is really depressing. Actually its rather really painful. There's no one to talk to now, only journals and endless shallow conversations with other people. I think I got really hurt deep inside. I think the walls are up again. I don't want anyone in there anymore.

So many disappointments, so many changes, so many insecurities. This is what happens when the connection just disappears. I'm very happy tho for my best friend. Best friend has a better life now and has the things that I wish I had. I guess it's really time to let go and not let anyone in for awhile.

Yes this is rather quite depressing. Cause it really is. Can't stop crying. Everything changed. It hurts but i guess its for the better, but it doesn't mean I won't get hurt and be depressed.

Such a sad season of my life. Such sadness eating me inside. I should prepare myself for food and movies, find a way to hide the scar inside.

Smile bandaids, we meet again.

I'm okay.

<3