"I think we should ask her to model for us," my classmate asked.
"Nah, i think her nose is too pointed and white," I replied.
A few days after, there was a rumor about a young talented artist that committed suicide.
I didn't care much, I just prayed to God her family would be okay. Until I asked my classmate who the person was.
"Oh! remember that girl I pointed to and asked if she could model for us? The pretty white girl? That's her. It's really sad."
Believe me. My mind went blank, and it rarely happens.
Lots of things went through my mind. But one thing never left my head. "What if we took her in as our model? Would it have made a difference?"
Nothing happens by chance, only by choice. Somehow, i feel like the Holy Spirit whispered to me that I should take her in, cause quite frankly, i wanted to, but she was already far from us, so i didn't bother.
I know I have nothing to do with that girl, but somehow i wonder, if ever I talked to her, would it have made a difference? I think it would at some point.
If I asked her to model for us, she would've been in the pictorial rather than in her room alone. I know it's not my fault, i have nothing to do with it, but it could have made one difference.
It's so easy for us to ignore the voice of the Holy Spirit, easy to judge other people of their appearance, easy to disregard them just like centavo coins. One obedience, could have made one difference.
It's been months since that incident in our school, but it never left me, and i believe that is no coincidence as well. I do believe God is teaching me something, its not to strengthen my fear, but to strengthen my faith. Making One difference, means to be different.
I wonder how many teenagers are committing suicide just because of loneliness, of ignorance.
I think about my life, my dreams. I want to be a fashion designer to be able to produce money for missions, to be a money maker for people who reach out to other people. What a lonely life. God gave me the opportunity to reach out to other people, and that's not just supporting them financially, but it's about having an ear to listen, eyes to see the need, a mouth to give encouragement & care, and arms so long to give a hug.
I got my perspective all wrong. It's not about making the money and giving it to the poor. It's about giving to the poor and using God's money to provide.
Mary poured her alabaster jar on Jesus' feet. She could've sold that alabaster jar and gave the huge amount of money to feed the hungry, but she chose to use it to honor Jesus. My eyes shouldn't be on the blessings, they should be on the Provider.
It takes one obedience to make one difference. I don't know how much people I've missed just because I've ignored the Holy Spirit. It just makes you want to cry. This is not about religion, it's about life. One love for God, can make one life for another.
I think, it's time to make one choice.
Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.
Matthew 22:37
This movie inspired me to write about this post. http://tosavealifemovie.com/
