I know it's my choice to choose whom I want. . But I want God's best and I wonder, is he really the one? It's something that boggles my mind from time to time but not really something i worry about greatly. "Just hold on girl, just wait," they say. I also wonder why I can't wait. Maybe this is how impatient a woman's heart can be.
Yes, you like him a lot right now. Though, what is the basis of your likeness of the man. Is it just at the outer core of him, or does it go down deep, caring for him like you've never did before? All this time I dreamt of a sparkly magical meeting and feeling, but then am i mixing my fantasy with my reality? Just because i didn't have those "Fairy Tale" like sparks such as from the movies. . . does it mean he's not the one? I might wait for forever til i meet the man such as that and miss the man that's best for me based on reality.
It's time to pop the bubbles of imagination and open the door of reality. I may not have those magical sparky feelings naturally, but he sure is creating his own to paint a smile on my face. . :) I guess that's the important thing. It's not about those superficial things that you look for to encounter the best for you, its about him doing his best to be the best for you. I guess that's what real love is all about. Its not about the magical love they call, its about the sacrificial love that is portrayed all over the Book of Life. Love doesn't come in pixie dust powdered boxes packaged and delivered by fairies or magic, love is nurtured, it is taken well care of.
But then, who am I to say i know what love really means? I'm jumping from the scene of care. Love can wait, but care? It stays from now til the end. It takes a human eye to see a man's love, but it takes a human heart to see a man's love made out of sacrifice that starts with care. :)
I can't say I'm in love right now. I can't say there's valid butterflies in my tummy. . but one thing i do know, I have to wait and see, coz indeed, true love waits and love doesn't come instantly, it comes progressively thru sacrifice and care, and of course, through endless prayers and communion with the source of all infinite Love named God. :)
